Day trip with the puppies

Me driving through the old Dalmorton convict tunnel. It wasn't actually built by convicts but rather by civilian labour. Sorry if the video isn't working. 

Had a great day getting out of the house and headed down to Dalmorton, nsw, Australia for a picnic lunch and a swim. I love getting down there and spending time just enjoying it's raw beauty.It is also good to know that local council has put a stop to 4wd's from using the area as well as dirt bikes as it was becoming very detrimental to the the farmers as they were eroding river banks by going off raod at every opportunity as well as scaring they farmers cattle especially from the dirt bikes. Good move council because for their 5 mins of enjoyment they care less for the land owners or their livestock.   I took some pics of the day and I'll explain what was going on on the photos. I hope you enjoy them.

 I was able to take the dogs today which was nice but Ralf drives me nuts. Ralf if you don't know is the white and black one the other one is Cyclone. Ralf just can't control his excitement and was just a crazy critter the whole way. Bless him.

 Looks like this blog has rearranged my photos and I don't know how to fix em so bare with me. Probably good mixing them anyway. This is the grave of a woman that died in Dalmorton either in 1934 or 1904. The cemetery is roughly 2 klms out of the old town just before a cattle grid heading north. You can't see the cemetery at all any more unless you drive up a dirt track winding through the clumps of lantana and then you have to walk around the lantana to try to find the graves. A rather sad end to eternity really.

 Jane Fords grave was one of the first you might find if you decide to explore the track through the cemetery.

 Couldn't ask for a better spot to stop. The Mann river was up a bit from last time i was there but I can't wait to go back camping. This is where we had lunch and Ralf was chasing Cyclone.

Dylan was in the water as soon as he could and the water was wonderful

You have to love the creativity of people that live in the bush. Here are some cool letterboxes people have made.

 Dylan was excited abut the trip really he was! Ha! I think Ralf was driving him nuts as well.

.This is just a cool old shed that I liked the look of so I photographed it. I was headed home .

Abandoned: Urban exploration of Grandma's house on Blackberry hill

New youtube video is out now. It's my first time doing this so I hope it's worked ok?? Enjoy if it has and share me around if you liked the video. I'm off for a day trip so should have something to post later today. Have a good day.

first post for 2018

It's been hot here of late as we are in the middle of summer and I have my boy home on holidays from school so I have to find things to do to keep us busy and entertained during the brake. We decided to go for a drive into the country and drove from my home town to a place called Kyogle before heading north up a quiet road through a town called Loadstone before heading up to Beaudesert and west to a small town called Boonah and back down to another town called Rathdowny before heading back home. I like to drive roads you wouldn't think of driving on such as dead end roads or dirt roads because that is usually where I'll find hidden treasures for me to either explore or take photos of. I got lucky because I got to take some nice photos and also got to find a couple of abandoned houses that I could explore and film for my youtube channel.
It's been awhile since I've posted on this blog. Maybe because I'm just too lazy but im going to try and be a bit more regular with posting here because I am off on road trips a lot and I guess I really should share more of what I experience while I am out exploring my part of the world which is northern nsw of Australia and there is so much to share with who ever is out there reading this.
Ok, now for the pics of yesterdays drive around. I hope you enjoy them.
I'm heading off for another day trip on the weekend so I see about another blog update then unless I find something else in the meantime.

I found this abandoned shed maybe once a electricity sub station in the long grass.

The shed was huge and full of odd stuff including an old ride on lawn mower. You can get an idea of the size from the door on the left.

The best score of all was finding this abandoned house near Boonah that I got to film. Lots of very tall grass made for a scary explore because I only had thongs on and it looked very much like brown snake territory. The building to the left was the original house and the larger part of the house was added at a later date. 

This is the later add on the the original house and was a nice explore. I'll get to uploading the video to my channel soon.

This was another abandoned very old house I found but unfortunately I couldn't get to it because of the very long grass and having my boy with me. I couldn't risk the long grass and the possibility of brown snakes. I'll try again another day because this place looks really good and is teasing me just sitting there up on the hill.

There were lots of great photo opportunities for me while I was driving around. This was near Rathdowny near Beaudesert Queensland

It has been over a year now since I last posted 23nd march 2013 actually.
I think I best keep at it otherwise what's the point of having a blog?
A lot has happened since last I was here, I am now a foster parent of an 11 year old boy with special needs, Autism to be precise and he has been with me now since June last year and it's been very challenging yet very rewarding at the same time. I can fill you in more in other posts so as not to bore you with details.
My stepfather has also passed away since I spoke last as well and mixed in with that I have been living the fact my sister has cancer and has been extremely sick because of treatment etc. That I can fill you in on in other posts as well but today she has gone to the doc because of lumps that have appeared and I'm waiting on news.
In amongst all of this rather trying year I have been developing my photography skills and every chance I can manage now, I try to venture out to get some shots.
I headed out this morning for some sunrise shots over the ocean.
It was raining and unfortunately didn't manage to get the sunrise I'd have hoped for but still managed some good photos anyways and you gotta watch out for rogue waves when pre occupied with cameras and umbrella's while perched precariously on slippery rocks, HA!
So, I won't bore anyone reading this with a novel for my first time back and lets see if I can up date this daily, no reason why I can't .
Here are some photos of my time out this morning.

 

 

See you tomorrow

Im back YAY!

OH my goodness! I thought this blog had been shut down ages ago and I have just found out it's still around so I guess I better start posting again.
To get things started, here is a photography I took acouple of days ago.
It's nice to be back :)

Feeling low because of work, have taken time off to think about where I'm headed. where am I headed? God knows! you sit and think sometimes and by the time you are finished thinking you are back where you started. Do I think too much? probably! I have been told before to switch my brain off, get fucked! how am I supposed to do that? Feeling very stuck right now.

Spending my days sourcing information and a variety of things that would be great to get happening. I have been toying with the idea of writing a novel , hence the bit I wrote previously. So many ideas going on in my head and wouldn't it be great to just have the time without all the stress to be able to do them. You see so many people from all over the world doing what they love and ask yourself is it going to happen for me? So many positive affirmations  and positive thinking, it's got to happen soon! Maybe I should get the Secret out and listen to it again LOL! I spent so much time listening to it and watching it a couple of years ago But, it doesn't appear to have made a great difference. Neither have the Chrystal's that I placed all over my body nor the meditation that I endured sitting cross legged on the floor to the point my legs fell asleep and I was unable to stand until I regained my blood flow ha ha! Does any of it really actually work? You'd have to ask yourself, if it does then why is it that after centuries of meditation and Chrystal's and mantras and so on that more people aren't in a better place than what they are. Buddhist monks don't appear to have a great life to me really! They have been displaced and are living in exile thanks to China yet, they sit in meditation for the majority of their lives. Shouldn't they have the most amazing lives by now with all that meditation? I'd be thinking so. Don't get me wrong! I believe in alot of what Buddhists believe in but, it doesn't really make a great deal of sense to me. Who has the time to sit for hours of meditation these days? I know people that believe in Buddhism yet they are still struggling and do it hard. I certainly don't believe in the adage that you must suffer to gain enlightenment. that's just a cop out because your living a life of shit and you're trying to make excuses.

I have tried to live a harmonious life and try to be nice to people. I have meditated and used mantras and slept with Chrystal's and positive affirmed myself stupid yet! where am I? I wouldn't say that I have found the path to wealth and happiness and contentment, if anything, I actually feel let down and disillusioned by having not reached spiritual bliss, if that's what it's called. I have struggled just about everyday of my adult life, trying to positive speak and try to make things better if I try this or maybe it will be better if I try that. Maybe I should try and change this about me because, is that what people want from me? I have tried to change myself so often these last ten years of my life, maybe I have lost who I am. Maybe I lost who I was after Phil died because That's when I noticed that something died (if that's what you wonna call it) in me and I lost my spirit. I was a very social being before that happened and I think I became shut out or I shut myself out. I became half the person I was and you hear it so often after some one looses their partner. I don't know why it happened but it did and that's where all the trouble began I guess. Quite often I ask myself why am I here? Why did what ever higher being not let me die when I came so close. What lessons am I to learn? When will I learn them? Am I going to finally have a better life before I do eventually leave this world? because to date, it has been extremely hard.
I know that I am not the only one in this world that probably feels this way, this is just my story and view on the whole thing.

I have spent so many years now just wanting to be accepted and feel loved and share love with people that have come into my life. I have wanted harmony and peace. I have projected this for so long, yet! I feel so miss understood.

The Branches by Michael K

They moved in suddenly one day. I don't know where from or why but they were there one morning, happily moving into the branches down the way, totally oblivious to all who were watching and checking them out.
They seemed happy with their choice of new home and rightly so too, for where they had come from, over the metal web it was very unsafe for the children, let alone the adults who were always at danger while looking for food for the family.
The children looked so happy jumping around outside their home while their mother and father placed everything just where it should be.
Mother, father, can we go play, said the children. Ok! came the reply, but do be very careful and stay close to the house, where we can keep an eye on you.
Ok! they both shouted and with that they both ran off to explore.
The children look so happy father said the mother, looking lovingly at the children as they ran around their new field in excitement. They do don't they mother, came the reply, I think we have made an excellent  choice of finding a new home for us and the children and I think we might be very happy here, he said, sweetly kissing his wife tenderly on the forehead.
It wasn't always like this! Father had spent a long time searching for a new land, somewhere safe for the children to grow without the constant fear that was always present where they once lived. Everytime some one left the house, it was always frort with danger from everywhere. So  when father had found the new land, it was wonderful for all. The new land was nothing like the old land and it was hidden away behind a large metal web, that appeared to stretch for miles in both directions and was so high they were all sure that clouds must sometimes get caught in it. Why it was there, no one knew, was it there to catch clouds? and if so, what for?
Father was so excited the day he had found the new land he couldn't wait to tell every one and they all jumped around with glee at what father was describing to them all. Where is it father? can we go see now?
Slow down! slow down! came the reply! It is on the other side of the metal web that sits at the far side of the toxic meadow and yes! I can show you all now but, better still we can all move in right now, but you all will have to be very quiet while we venture through the toxic meadow to get to the metal web,  said the father.
They all packed their belongings very quickly and would leave the big things for another time as the branches had all they needed. With that they all snuck quietly through the toxic meadow hoping that they didn't come across the big grass eater that would make such a loud noise at it chewed the grass off at the base and left it in rows as it went or the giant feathered creatures that would try and catch them if they were spotted. They made it to the metal web without making a sound and found the small hole their father had made under the web, so that they would be able to get under it.
Oh my! came a loud cry from Stamp as he scurried under the web and came out the other side to a sight that was beautiful and full of astonishment all at once. Oh! do hurry so I can see, said Velvet their daughter! I want to see too and as Velvet came up straight out of the hole, she could not believe her eyes!
It's wonder full, she said. Oh mother, Oh father, this is the more beautiful place I have ever seen. With that, Velvet and Stamp both stared all around the new land not knowing whether to run around r stay where they were.
As their mother came up through the hold, she clutched them both to her as she exhaled in amazement at the sight that befell her too. OH! my! she said, it's too beautiful for words. I've never seen any place as beautiful as this. And beautiful it was!
It was nothing like they had ever seen and greener that they could ever have imagined, for before them sat a land that was  a dream come true.
They had come through the hole quite near the branches and they all stood under a giant tree that shaded both them and the branches as they looked around in astonishment.
Here is our new home, said the father, snapping them all back into reality.
Oh! it does look lovely said the mother and with that both mother and father ushered the children over to see their new home. The children ran into the branched yelling who was going to have which room.This is my room, said Stamp as he looked out the window, through a thicket of ginger and up into the new land.

Velvet found her room and they asked their parents if they could explore.














Don't go too far! their mother said as they both ran to see what they could see. Isn't it beautiful Stamp!? said Velvet looking up into the new land that sat before them. I think I will like living here she said. So do I replied Stamp!
It was too beautiful for them to imagine and Stamp noticed that the were large structures further up in the land. What do you think that might be Velvet? asked Stamp. I don't know Stamp. Maybe others live here too. Oh! how exciting Stamp, if we have lovely neighbours to play with. Wouldn't that be grand!?

What would I be like if I was still living in Germany?
I tend to wonder about that on occasion and today I spent some time thinking about it yet again because I seem to always be justifying my manner to people here.
Is it because of they way we were bought up or is it in the blood? So often I feel like I have so much jewish blood happening because I tend to work well on guilt lol! Fran fine always comes to mind when I am trying to manipulate a situation but I do it so well.
Our grand mother was supposed to come from jewish heritage after all.
Sometimes I feel that if I would be in Germany, I would probably be accepted more. God! that is something that wouldn't happen anyway due to the fact I can't stand the cold here let alone over there. There ain't anything nice about snow apart from it looking nice on Christmas cards. Why anyone would want to ski is beyond me as well. Tried it once and it was cold, wet, and it hurt alot and there ain't no way that the old saying (bend z knees) works because it's bullshit. Every time I tried to take  a  step forward, I ended sliding three steps back and sitting in a warm bar with a roaring fire is by far more appealing.
I have no idea where I'm headed with this post? I had a totally different topic in mind for this today but as is life, things change and change it has and I'm off on another tangent.
I should turn off the tele when I attempt to write these blog because right now Andrew Zimmern is distracting me with Balinese cremations and snake blood drinking. Some cultures have a far better perspective on death than us westerners do. Why wouldn't you celebrate a life lived instead of crying yourself stupid and morning for months. I know which I'd prefer! there is no way, when I die I'm going to have people sitting around a box I'm in crying hysterically. I'm off to science when I go and let them do with me what they need to do to help possibly discover
Once upon a time I would have liked to have had a gigantic monument erected to myself with rotunder and marble statues so that everyone knew I was there but having experienced death at a very close level, ( I might tell you about it sometime) I have discovered that when you are gone, what does it matter any way? People will come and visit your stone ( because that's all it is) for a short while, cry for awhile and then, they don't visit quiet so often, don't tend to keep your stone all nice and shinny and before you know it, you just end up a crooked stone that's gone all mouldy and weed ridden that no one cares about anymore.

I never tended to go for all that stuff and when Phil died, I didn't see that it was him I was visiting, just a rock, as I said. Nothing more, he isn't there, not his spirit anyway. Sometimes I will visit on Google earth and say hello but, I believe a persons spirit will be with you for how ever long you think about that person and if you have that person in your heart, They will never go away. And while I think of it! Don't get me started on people erecting horrendous road side monuments to their departed. God forbid that I should end up in a car crash and have my loved ones erecting white crosses and hideous silk sunflowers on the side of the road. I will haunt them for eternity if that should ever happen. I 'm not too sure how to explain it? But maybe I feel it is demeaning to that person who has died. I certainly wouldn't want to remember someone I know by visiting the side of some road somewhere, There is a time and place for everything! Phil is to the right of the pic.
I miss him alot still to this day and he left this world back in 1989. I have gone on a HUGE tangent today!
I'll speak to you later.

It's too quiet around here, abit like the calm before the storm and I don't feel right!
I have a feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just can't work it out, whether it's good or bad. Would seem that usually these feelings of intuition don't  bode for much good. Ha! maybe I will get the sack from work! I doubt it though, I'd have to have done something pretty bad before that happens, Maybe I will walk out? I certainly feel like doing it so often these days.
Who knows!?
I have been enjoying doing blokey things today and working with Craig has been nice! He is feeling out of sorts himself and that may be the reason we are both very quiet.
I have now made a lid for my fish tank, to hide the lights, so that it looks a bit more appealing on the eye. We walked into town yesterday to buy some more fish for the tank but, wouldn't you know! they had sold out of the ones we wanted, so we ended up buying some weed, For the tank and NOT the other kind, thank you very much! LOL!
We are both not feeling terribly well and yesterday I could have ripped some ones head off, thanks to my sinuses doing horrible things, thank god! today they are slightly better and I can't function a bit better. I don't like being like that at all and it's like when I have low sugar levels, I am the biggest prick I know and no matter how much you try to be nice, it just aint gonna happen. Why is it? I would love to know why this happens because, Thank god!, there is some one at work that has exactly the same thing. I used to think it was just me.
Enough of the illnesses and crap!

Made my lid and im very happy thank you! I am sitting here enjoying the intoxicating fumes of wood stain as we speak and feeling a glorious flush come apon me, LOL!








Been a busy man netting the pond as well today, so as the autumn leaves don't fall into the pond and mank it up. I learnt my leson last year. The pond turned into a stagnant cesspool and no very pleasant to try and clean out, I'd have to say.

We missed out on going to a birthday party last night because of the fact that we are both not feeling the best but hay! there is always next year. I think I went to bed reasonably early?? Can't really remember due to the fact I fell asleep once again on the lounge while watching a dvd. This medication seems to  knock me out early these days.











On a different track! Have you ever spent like, ages on Google Earth? I can play on there for ever some days, just looking around here and there. Walking the streets of Hollywood or going to see the pyramids in Egypt. I flew over a friends place in Arkansas this morning. It's always fun doing a fly over of where your friends live. I've been to Paris and Versailes. Love to go there one day. Sometimes I think I must have come froms ome sort of royalty or something like that because of my taste in things.
I'm digressing again!

My friend in Arkansas has given me permission to post a very HOT pic of him in his undies so here it is!
Could just snuggle in there for awhile!.........










Ummmm!? where was I? Oh! thats right! Dinner! Hahahaha! It's not where I was but now I'm feeling like it.

I have prepared some lamb rissoles with heaps of parsley and mint and garlic (gonna smell nice tomorrow at work) Rather Lebanese I'd say! Very much lokking forward to eating it and I think it just might be time to head off and see about cookiing some up. Shall be having them with tabouli. Miight head over to the neiubours before dinner and see how they are doing, it's been a few days since we got together. Pic of the lamb mince, sorry it's raw but I haven't cooked it yet have I!?
See ya XXXX

How cool! I have just learnt how to post Gifs!
Thats a big moment for me, mind you it took me almost an hour to find out how to do it LOL!

I have nothing to say! I'm just here playing around with the fonts and all the other thingys in the tool bar. I must be bored because I'm sitting here doing what I'm doing while I'm watching Ace of cakes Haha!

Whats to talk about!? How I cleaned the house today? folded the clothes? threw away half my old clothes? Mind you, it needed to be done and was wayyyyy overdue.

I might leave this blog for another day, it would appear I'm far more interested in watching Ace of cakes and I'm hugely distracted.

                                                                           Is he a redhead??

wears his shorts well! 

I love this!

Ok! here are acouple of guys :)

Whats he got stuck in his cozzie???



















Nice back :)

Awesome thighs! I'd love to have thighs like this :)

woke up this morning feeling abit better than I did yesterday and speaking to some nice friends early this morning has helped me feel alot better too. I managed to get an appointment with the doc early which is great because I hate waiting for appointments. Does my head in!
Craig was heard coughing and spluttering from the bedroom while I chatted on facebook so I knew he was having the day off too which was good because that ment he could take me to the doc.

God I hate not being able to drive! and I have another year and a half to wait to get it bac.
Doc has told me to rest for acouple more days and Am I complaining? NAH!
I'm not happy that I have had to take time out from doing the training but the way things are at work, does it matter anyway? It's going to be good to be able to rest for a few days so I'll make the most of it. I bought the unautherized biography on Oprah a couple of weeks ago so I might catch up on that and get all the dirt on Oprah. I think she deserves having dirt dished on her, might bring her down a beg or two.
Where was I!?
I'm home and happy to be here, I just might see about going to three days instead of four, now that we are unable to buy the house.Maybe we just focus on saving money to go overseas and maybe live in indonesia for awhile. I think I'd be far happier doing that than what we are doing now.
Time will tell! We still gotta go to court about the house yet not to mention me going to court next month.
I have made some awesome leek and cauliflower soup today and it is awesome too. craig has been threatened that if he sat in front of the pc all day I would not be happy at all, so he is now in bed, reading a book. I have been out to the chooks today and as I expected, they are now laying all their eggs in the garage and not in the chook coop.
I'm sure they are laying eggs somewhere else because I only found 12 and I haven't checked in a few days and I'm sure there should be more.
I'm off now, I have posted some pics of the eggs and soup OH!!!!.............
I nearly forgot! I have bananas happening in the back yard and I'm happy becuase they are my first bananas. Shame they are up so high because I don't know how I'm going to bag them and for those of you if any? Bananas need to have a bag placed over then as they are grown to keep critters and bats  etc away from them. I will post a pic of them as well.
You think I'm just going to post sexually explicit pics all the time you are mistaken!

Bye! I may be back later if anything exciting happens.





 Leek and cauliflower soup YUM!

My first bananas  OH! Joy!





                                                                                                    Garage eggs!

Fuck me! I am not well at all!
Had to leave training seminar half way through the day to come home and die.Major chest infection happening and what happens?? The doctor is shut today. Ironic!
I don't have any big thoughts right now and I'm going back to bed.
We heard back from real estate people today and it looks like we have been unsuccessful with getting the house. Get fucked is all I have to say about it all. I tired of the whole thing and tired of fighting so fuckin hard with everything.
So! As I said! I'm going back to bed!
Maybe it will all come out in the wash tomorrow!?
HA!!!!!!!!!!..........................................

ps: in case you were wondering about the chooks! I haven't looked so there are probably eggs all over the place and I will have o do an egg hunt when I feel better.

Nice way to relax :)

Whats he doing in the wardrobe? Nice arse!














Could a sunny day be any better?















Good Lord!!!...................: p



















Awesome legs!












Nice braclet!
















Hay there big daddy!

Me doing Kylie's new song

Ok! so I liked the Kylie song that much yesterday I had to do it myself. I don't think it turned out too bad concidering I am sick as a dog with a cold and chest infection and I only heard the song that day plus! I was using my mouse at the same time as I was doing the song, scrolling down so that I could see the words! God! I'm good LOL!
Anyway! I like how it turned out with the effects and all, mind you I was trying to get chroma key happening and this is what I got.
I raced down town to buy a cheap wig and spent $30 bucks on a mic that I didn't even use! Ummmarhhhh!
This video took me most of the day to do, first I was rehearsing trying to look good on cam which is alot harder than it seems because you'd be suprised at how weird you can look just doing your usual thing. So! that took forever, then I had to try and get the words right then editing took forever. I still didn't get the chroma key thing happening properly. The cold is hanging in there just so you know and there ain't anything prudier than sneezin and snotin all over yourself when you got makeup on LOL!
Not much to report, just fell asleep as usual in from of the tele before heading off to bed, which I wasn't looking forward too because there is nothing worse that trying to sleep with a cold and you end up playing snot tennis all night, tossing and turning and each time you turn over, your blocked nostral swaps sides ARHHH!
Thats it! I got nothing else to say apart from the chooks have been roaming the backyard the last couple of days scratching out all the nasties and laying their eggs in the garage.
Enjoy the video and enjoy the eyecandy too.

Bare with me while I   try and get rid of this cold. Not much happeing right now apart from just me blowing my nose like crazy and sitting in front of the tele. Tried to get out and do some shopping but wasn't the best idea.

Anywayz! Im off to blow my nose again since I just sneezed snott everywhere.
I just found this guy this morning and I think he is hot!















I just like the undies in this pic :)

Have you ever felt like life is passing you by!? I feel like it is and wish there was some way of getting out of it. It seems like the old saying ( same shit different day) is alive and well here. Frustrating is a word that I'd use for today and thats just what it was FRUSTRATING!
There is so much more to life than what is happening now and unfortunately, I feel like it's slipping by far too quickly.
Give me a place some where in the bush, somewhere that has a roof and shelter. Somewhere I can paint again, somewhere I can, grow my own food, somewhere I can feel like I am part of what is around me and not somewhere I feel totally disconnected from life.
I miss being able to do my art, something that I once enjoyed a great deal and was actually making a living from.
I hate myself for allowing my ex boyfriend to ruin what I had dreamt for myself and that I had let him disempower me to the point that I was no good for anything.
I have always had such low self esteme that I have always put other people before myself to the point I loss sight of my own goals and dreams and needs and wants.
Silly Huh!? I guess it comes from growing up in a very disfunctional family with a mother so totally self absorbed she wasn't ever there for her children and so tottally disfunctional that she taught us how to be disfunctional. It isn't far for a mother to put their own shit onto their children and think it s ok because, it ain't. Even talking to her on mothers day was a test of endurance and tolerance. Am I being far to idealist in thinking that talking to your mother should be a pleasant undertaking?? It isn't and most of the time ain't at all. I' love to speak with my mother and have a feeling of acceptance and knowing that I have some where to turn when things aren't going so great. Ok! so there are people out there that don't have mothers and are in the same boat but, I wish I could think back in my life and know that someone was there to nurture me.
Anyways! I'm rabbling once again!

I'm off for another glass of red and maybe see about dinner. The husband has just got home so it's a good excuse to sign out.
If anyone does read this!? Peace and love to you I'm off to make dinner.
 You ain't gettin any rudy pics because I ain't in the mood ok!?

Some eyecandy